Not Alone

“You’re not alone.”

Not sure what instigated the argument, aside from me freaking out over a missing envelope which was, in the end, right where hubs said it was.

But it was one little thing that just set me off. It happened last year too. I found myself getting emotional. Down. Breaking down more often than not, at one point sobbing in my husbands lap on the floor for I don’t even know why.

Today, as soon as I walked in the door at work, I broke down. Sobbed into the arms of my coworkers, and all I can really equate it to is stress. I mean, my husband, after six months, still doesn’t have a job. There’s a lot that goes along with that, that I won’t spill here because it doesn’t need to be here but just imagine that.

So a coworker suggested counseling. Just to have an unbiased ear to listen to. I’ve done it before. Senior year of college, mostly because The Ex suggested I had commitment issues and that it might help to talk to someone to figure out why. Turns it out it was us not being right for each other and not necessarily me (there were other issues going on…but not related to my commitment).

So. This week, I’m going to find a new counselor. I’m going to go talk to someone. To save myself, to save my marriage, because sometimes, you just need someone (unbiased) to listen. I don’t want to feel sad, overwhelmed or even stressed out…all the time. Because I feel like I am. Even though I may be exaggerating, it just…feels that way.

So that’s me friends. I know I’m not alone in this battle – whatever this battle really is. I know I have amazing friends, a great husband, and a family who wishes they could be here for me.

In the meantime, I have a lot to be grateful for. I should start focusing on that more.

Today I’m grateful for…email chains with good friends, free wine tastings, new patent heels in nude, and coworkers who give amazing hugs when I really need them.

{side note: Don’t forget, I’m raffling off a yoga startup kit and a $50 lululemon gift card to raise money for Girls on the Run! Go here to see more details! Raffle ends Sunday February 6th!}

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