Friday, I turn 36. Which means I will have had a corner of the internet for nearly 18 years. I’m pretty sure I started my blog on Livejournal back in February 2001 – right around when my high school boyfriend and I were on the outs because of some high school reason (He was in NY, I was heading to Boston… you know… teenage stuff).
My blog recorded all the time through college (though I think i LOST that file somewhere along the way). My first years post-college, getting married and starting a family and all the ups and downs in between.
But, life has changed over the past two years and my blogging has suffered.
If you’re a working mom, you know that time is sacred. My priorities have shifted and usually, by the end of the day when I’m sipping a glass of wine and decompressing with the hubs, I long wistfully for the energy to write a blog post but there’s nothing left.
In that time, I’ve also had this identity crisis as a blogger – because 1. time is money and blogging is time and will I ever make money off this thing?! 2. Do I want to? How much effort do I want to put in here? 3. Imposter syndrome – every “idea” I have, inspired by another blogger or not, seems to be done elsewhere by someone who does it better than I really have the time to.
But still, I miss writing. I miss my corner of the internet. The connections, the inspiration, the community of bloggers and I really want to get back to it with no expectations.
Once upon a time, my blog was “bigger”. I mean it was never huge, but traffic was steady (before traffic mattered) and the comments were always aplenty. I’m not a big scale influencer, nor was I ever really sure I wanted to be. I didn’t want to feel like I sacrificed my life to get the perfect picture, the perfect post or do a full recap of what I ate (I hated the healthy living bloggers who took pictures of their food in weird places – i.e. their porch but on the floor) – that was never the blogging life I wanted.
So as I dive into my 36th year, and my 18th year managing a corner of the internet – I’m recommitting. I’m recommitting to my own passions, the topics I want to write about and following through on them.
Happy Wednesday friends, I promise I’ll be back!