The hubs is having a grand ole time at Basic. Which is awesome – I’m so proud of him and excited for him – he has a spark that I haven’t seen in a really long time.
He called last night to give me his address – it was a much needed, albeit very brief, phone call.
After we hung up, not knowing when we’d talk again, I cried. A big fat ugly cry. Then I cooked dinner, turned on the television and opened a beer.
Except I forgot I opened the beer and discovered it this morning when I was putting my lunch together. Whoops.
After licking my wounds from yesterdays rejection and talking to the hubs (for the quick 5 minutes I got to talk to him) – I thought about what I wanted. Where I want to be.
My ah-hem “non-negotiables”:
*I want a job that I’m passionate about. I’ve been so blessed over the past two years now to work for amazing companies, with amazing, inspiring people. I’ve found my passions, my next step is to find a position that lets me explore them and grow.
*I want to work for a company with positive values. Values that encourage employee development, reward and recognize employees for their hard work.
*I won’t settle. I’m not in a bad place now. My position certainly isn’t my dream job but there’s room for growth in the company. I’ve hit a hurdle and when you hit one, as I learned in high school track and field, you brush the dirt off your knees, get back up and keep running.
*Set long term goals. Long term – like 5-10 years from now, I want to be a freelance social media/marketing consultant. I want to be an entrepreneur that helps entrepreneurs. My experience has allowed me to manage communities, manage content, and work with people. I like being around people. I like educating people. This is not only what I’m passionate about but coaching is what I’m good at.
*I won’t ever let my job keep me from doing things I’m passionate about. Like Junior League. Running. Having time with the husband. These are things that I need to have in my life to keep me balanced. If a job doesn’t let you have a balanced life, it’s time for a new job.
Back at lululemon, they encourage you to set goals and create a hedgehog by evaluating what you’re passionate about, how you can make money and what you’re good at where these three intersect is your hedgehog. It’s how you can live your life to the fullest. I’ve figured mine out and even though my inherent goals have changed, as they are wont to do, my hedgehog has stayed the same – I’m still passionate (and relatively good at) about social media, and digital marketing and I can still make money with that.
Now it’s time to brush my knees. Reaffirm goals and passions and go after them. I can’t let the fact that I’m burnt out get me down and keep me from being a rock star. I am a rock star. Now, more so than before, is when I need to shine like one. Because it’s not that I’m super unhappy, I just want more. More challenges, more feeling like I’m at least moving towards my long term goals. Because despite my awesome-sauce company, lately I’ve been in a rut. An all encompassing-drag-me-down-don’t-want-to-get-out-of-bed-for-work rut. And I’ve been there before, but at companies that were far less savory than the one I work for now (this one gives a damn about its employees – who knew what a difference that could make!) so I need to be grateful. Grateful that I’m employed, that I work for a company that wants me to grow but right now? Just doesn’t have the right opportunity for me. And I’d rather wait for the right opportunity than just jump at the first sight of land – I’m not afraid of jumping into deep water because I know how to swim, but why swim if you don’t see land? Right? Right.
In the meantime, I will keep shining. Keep running. Keep writing long letters to the husband every day. Keep snuggling the kittehs. Keep my house clean. Keep laughing with my coworkers who really make my life every. freaking. day.
How do you pick yourself back up from disappointment?